People usually say home is where the heart is. However, the fact that my parents got divorced had my heart and my whole future hanging in the balance at my age of eight when I did well in my school. Everything seemed normal in my school but I cried for many nights, feeling so sad.After that I dived into the world of learning English that brought me relief. And I found English was shaping my mindset and thinking. I see things from different perspectives.
       After the divorce, my father went to Paris for business and stopped visiting me while my mother changed her jobs frequently in order to pay my tuition.Several years later, I was told that my father had a new wife and a son.While my mother remarried and had a little boy, my brother when I was in senior high school. I felt lonely and helpless. The exams were so difficult that I was frustrated everyday even though I studied hard till midnight and got up early, keeping putting in knowledge by heart. But at the end of  the day, those things slipped away from my head. At the same time I kept a diary in English for my schooldays. As a  result, I failed the college entrance examination.I was so sad but determined that I had to have another try. So I prepared the exam for another year. Without the distractions compared with the excellent competitors, I was more focused on nothing but learning. Finally, I was enrolled into Northeast Normal University.
       Overjoyed, with the thought of restarting my life, I was motivated to do everything. I took active part in all kinds of activities to improve my ability at student council. In addition , I went to the library for study everyday and served students as a librarian. Also, I was so glad that I was accepted as a member of an English subtitle club to translate English scripts.
       However, life is a journey of twists and turns, peaks and valleys, mountains to climb and oceans to explore. It was such a extremely cold winter when I stayed with the temperatures as low as minus thirty degree Celsius that snow pretty much stays frozen for the whole winter. And it was a long,  chilly tromp through the swirling night from the library to my dormitory.
       One day, I was waiting outside the ticket booth like a fool for two whole hours only to ask for the ticket to hometown but failed. In the following days, I felt exhausted all the time even when I got enough sleep. I often had fever and rashes but the symptoms came and went. Ultimately I was diagnosis with lupus, the SLE. To the beginning, I just can't believe it because I never heard about it before. It is one of rheumatism. After undergoing so many tests, the answer of cause of my lupus is still not perfectly clear. Maybe I wasn't necessarily really good at knowing what that meant. So it actually got to a point where I had to leave off my studies and went to Shanghai for my treatments.
       Sometimes life is going to punch you in the face but you need to get your hands up and keep fighting.
       Thankfully, I am doing quite well now. During my recovery, I had a special table attached to my bed so I could read English original books like The Kite Runner, The Call of the Wild, Animal Farm and so on. These books really gave me abundant energy. What's more, I watched a lot of movies including watching the same movie multiple times to learn the expressions from these great scripts.
       When I felt it was a thousand pities that I wasn't an English major that I've always been looking forward to, I found online courses from BFSU. I know that ultimately making academic achievement comes down to the goal you set. And my goal is to become a learner for life-long learning. Online courses of BFSU enables life-long learning. Now I commit more time to learn new ways, techniques and skills of English from the online courses of BFSU.
       Learning not only expands my horizon, skillset and helps me find more efficient ways to complete a task, but also gives me a sense of accomplishment and a confidence to keep growing no matter what the situation is. I learned how to play the piano through English tutorials in youtube and now completed many music performances.
       The meaning of life is not about the wealth and the status but about carrying forward the spirit of exploring knowledge and cherishing knowledge as a priceless spiritual treasure.

 
温州大学技术与管理人才培训中心学习中心
英语专业
钱芊蒙